ライス ライス -=≡☆
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title: big step in life ig.. (i'm scared)
date: 05/22/2024 06:02PM
husband and i are thinking about buying a house. that's some big adult shit right there. the problem is me. and my husband won't admit it. i can't drive. i am scared to drive. but its only 8 minutes from my work place but realistically its like 20 minutes if there is traffic. all of this makes me useless..
and i don't even have a car..
date: 05/22/2024 06:02PM
husband and i are thinking about buying a house. that's some big adult shit right there. the problem is me. and my husband won't admit it. i can't drive. i am scared to drive. but its only 8 minutes from my work place but realistically its like 20 minutes if there is traffic. all of this makes me useless..
and i don't even have a car..
title: nevermind
date: 05/23/2024 02:43PM
husband and i decided nah about the house. no money at all and we are okay with the apartment. rent is okay too. but the atabook go crazy wait until neocities finds this LMAO
date: 05/23/2024 02:43PM
husband and i decided nah about the house. no money at all and we are okay with the apartment. rent is okay too. but the atabook go crazy wait until neocities finds this LMAO
title: 3 day weekend yes!!
date: 05/24/2024 02:56PM
excited for this 3 day weekend because my older brother and sister-in-law and my nephew are coming over for memorial weekend! but the thing that sucks is the weather might be shitty all weekend. but i think it's okay because my nephew is going to get all the attention in the world. because they're coming over me and my husband are sleeping over at my moms place for the weekend. i hope your memorial weekend is nice!
date: 05/24/2024 02:56PM
excited for this 3 day weekend because my older brother and sister-in-law and my nephew are coming over for memorial weekend! but the thing that sucks is the weather might be shitty all weekend. but i think it's okay because my nephew is going to get all the attention in the world. because they're coming over me and my husband are sleeping over at my moms place for the weekend. i hope your memorial weekend is nice!
title: eehhh boring
date: 05/27/2024 01:24PM
was hoping we could've done something the 3 weekend we had but everyone was too lazy to go out. at least me and my husband did small things like go fishing and to the store. also had so much time watching my cute and adorable baby nephew ♥ saturday was really sunny hence me and my husband went out. but the other two days was gloomy and rainy. sleep? mid. but overall, it was okay. spending time with my family is already good enough hehe
date: 05/27/2024 01:24PM
was hoping we could've done something the 3 weekend we had but everyone was too lazy to go out. at least me and my husband did small things like go fishing and to the store. also had so much time watching my cute and adorable baby nephew ♥ saturday was really sunny hence me and my husband went out. but the other two days was gloomy and rainy. sleep? mid. but overall, it was okay. spending time with my family is already good enough hehe
title: untitled bcuz idk
date: 05/31/2024 02:27PM
cut my hair during memorial weekend and now my head feels so light and i feel so much better because taking care of long hair can get tiring. long hair gets everywhere and they get in the way of sleeping sometimes. but ive been working on a medical page but finding resources are so hard so i went back to tumblr searching my archives to find old self care masterpost list. so far? a couple of useful ones.
date: 05/31/2024 02:27PM
cut my hair during memorial weekend and now my head feels so light and i feel so much better because taking care of long hair can get tiring. long hair gets everywhere and they get in the way of sleeping sometimes. but ive been working on a medical page but finding resources are so hard so i went back to tumblr searching my archives to find old self care masterpost list. so far? a couple of useful ones.
title: updates eh
date: 06/08/2024 05:40AM
my husband finally started volleyball again. wore a cute sundress there and watched him played. missed out on my mom's birthday but that was okay. just long weeks of working and i'm so tired. yesterday was alright at work as i really had nothing to do but stand around and do nothing for the most part hehe. but other then that i am doing okay. thinking about redoing my layout but i love it so much. the violent urge is real
date: 06/08/2024 05:40AM
my husband finally started volleyball again. wore a cute sundress there and watched him played. missed out on my mom's birthday but that was okay. just long weeks of working and i'm so tired. yesterday was alright at work as i really had nothing to do but stand around and do nothing for the most part hehe. but other then that i am doing okay. thinking about redoing my layout but i love it so much. the violent urge is real
title: untitled 02
date: 06/19/2024 02:47PM
too much tea at work. its okay i am invested. but holy crap me and my husband along with my little brother have been going out fishing and crayfishing for two weekends now hehe. its so much fun but so hot. i hate hot weather. spent like crazy. not too crazy though. also got my neokyo package today, waiting on more things to come. bought airpods. finally. also woke up this morning at 4AM to cook something for my husbands potluck today. taco something. lol realized its a wednesday. lame. only half through the week and i'm pretty sure i work this saturday, so is my husband. that reminds me. the new minecraft update is so cool. me, my husband and little brother have a minecraft server. very fustrating since i am not a survival girl but more of a creative girl hehe because i like to build things on minecraft.
i am having second thoughts on my current layout and maybe planning to switch back. idk. i have attatchment issues. i haven't even updated my shrines and my j-movies list in awhile maybe i should work on that. i need to add more quotes and start on my anime page. which might be short..
date: 06/19/2024 02:47PM
too much tea at work. its okay i am invested. but holy crap me and my husband along with my little brother have been going out fishing and crayfishing for two weekends now hehe. its so much fun but so hot. i hate hot weather. spent like crazy. not too crazy though. also got my neokyo package today, waiting on more things to come. bought airpods. finally. also woke up this morning at 4AM to cook something for my husbands potluck today. taco something. lol realized its a wednesday. lame. only half through the week and i'm pretty sure i work this saturday, so is my husband. that reminds me. the new minecraft update is so cool. me, my husband and little brother have a minecraft server. very fustrating since i am not a survival girl but more of a creative girl hehe because i like to build things on minecraft.
i am having second thoughts on my current layout and maybe planning to switch back. idk. i have attatchment issues. i haven't even updated my shrines and my j-movies list in awhile maybe i should work on that. i need to add more quotes and start on my anime page. which might be short..
title: closing
date: 06/28/2024 05:09PM
i found the script of closing my site made by melonking. i really like it and already added the script onto my site! i decided that sundays and mondays were the crucial days for me in terms of irl shit. sundays are the days to prepare (mentally) for work and mondays are, well no one likes mondays. its also a really good thing for me as to not be on my pc too much as i don't want to spend most of my time looking at a screen everytime i come home from work. my closing page is pretty dope. took me a few minutes to find the bubble message and i made it work hehe.
called in today. just because my husband was off today. why not hehe. spent the entire day basically making kimbap(?). took a shower and finally out on some press ons. life's great. also my aliexpress packages came in yesterday. most of them. i still am waiting for more to come in, well the rest of them.
date: 06/28/2024 05:09PM
i found the script of closing my site made by melonking. i really like it and already added the script onto my site! i decided that sundays and mondays were the crucial days for me in terms of irl shit. sundays are the days to prepare (mentally) for work and mondays are, well no one likes mondays. its also a really good thing for me as to not be on my pc too much as i don't want to spend most of my time looking at a screen everytime i come home from work. my closing page is pretty dope. took me a few minutes to find the bubble message and i made it work hehe.
called in today. just because my husband was off today. why not hehe. spent the entire day basically making kimbap(?). took a shower and finally out on some press ons. life's great. also my aliexpress packages came in yesterday. most of them. i still am waiting for more to come in, well the rest of them.
title: j4th weekend
date: 07/09/2024 02:35PM
i have been dreading the entire week last week because work decided for us to work on july 5th after july 4th and i hated it because the beginning of the year i tried to take off and it took my supervisor a month to deny my vacation!! i was dreading like crazy and i even cried to my husband that i didn't want to work but instead stay with him since he was off that day too. my little brother; who works with me and my mom; wanted to work and i kept convincing him to call in with me but he kept saying he was going to work. so i ended up agreeing with him and my mom to just work. me and my husband slept over at my moms place since she had off that friday and went to see my older brother and his family along side with my other two brothers that went along. long story short, me and my little brother called in because he decided that thursday night he was going to call in and i had to make sure he was sure that he was going to call in. and we did hehe. spent the entire week broke and bored. if i had my pc and my husband had his ps5, we could've played minecraft. we were stuck all day watching youtube.
i think, after making a few more purchases. and i keep saying this but never change. i really need to save money. if you see me say this a lot, call me out on it. also...haven't had my period yet....am i sick? or pregnant..WE'LL SEE...
date: 07/09/2024 02:35PM
i have been dreading the entire week last week because work decided for us to work on july 5th after july 4th and i hated it because the beginning of the year i tried to take off and it took my supervisor a month to deny my vacation!! i was dreading like crazy and i even cried to my husband that i didn't want to work but instead stay with him since he was off that day too. my little brother; who works with me and my mom; wanted to work and i kept convincing him to call in with me but he kept saying he was going to work. so i ended up agreeing with him and my mom to just work. me and my husband slept over at my moms place since she had off that friday and went to see my older brother and his family along side with my other two brothers that went along. long story short, me and my little brother called in because he decided that thursday night he was going to call in and i had to make sure he was sure that he was going to call in. and we did hehe. spent the entire week broke and bored. if i had my pc and my husband had his ps5, we could've played minecraft. we were stuck all day watching youtube.
i think, after making a few more purchases. and i keep saying this but never change. i really need to save money. if you see me say this a lot, call me out on it. also...haven't had my period yet....am i sick? or pregnant..WE'LL SEE...
title: sigh
date: 07/16/2024 02:49PM
this blog post was meant to be something. but i just sat on my futon dozed out about what to write. i guess you can say, life is quite boring right now. beach days are hardly here due to the constant wind and rain. empty money because your priorities aren't straight. selling stuff sucks now because i am getting more and more unfocused on shipping. haven't been able to clean my apartment because of how much needs to be done. doordashing food because life seems better ordering then making it. wishing for some sort of miracle but in all honesty, i am just lazy. i have absolutely 0 motivation whatsoever. but all of this, and this is me gaslighting myself, might just be me painting myself as a victim.
date: 07/16/2024 02:49PM
this blog post was meant to be something. but i just sat on my futon dozed out about what to write. i guess you can say, life is quite boring right now. beach days are hardly here due to the constant wind and rain. empty money because your priorities aren't straight. selling stuff sucks now because i am getting more and more unfocused on shipping. haven't been able to clean my apartment because of how much needs to be done. doordashing food because life seems better ordering then making it. wishing for some sort of miracle but in all honesty, i am just lazy. i have absolutely 0 motivation whatsoever. but all of this, and this is me gaslighting myself, might just be me painting myself as a victim.
title: feelings and events
date: 07/28/2024 02:49PM
feelings: why can't i just wear press on nails and jewlery forever...i just want to feel pretty everyday but i work at this stupid manufacturing job....dumb.
events: the nekweb discord debate club: a 67 year old kid (?) demanded very rudely about nekowebs theme made by rol about how it's an eye sore, they wanted to vomit everytime they look at it, looks like a pepto bismol themed. turns out, they were on mobile the entire time. then refused to read what we were all explaining 20 times. the whole thread turned into shitposting. under dimdens request, they deleted it. it was for the best but i wish i could've archived to look at the memories we made.
date: 07/28/2024 02:49PM
feelings: why can't i just wear press on nails and jewlery forever...i just want to feel pretty everyday but i work at this stupid manufacturing job....dumb.
events: the nekweb discord debate club: a 67 year old kid (?) demanded very rudely about nekowebs theme made by rol about how it's an eye sore, they wanted to vomit everytime they look at it, looks like a pepto bismol themed. turns out, they were on mobile the entire time. then refused to read what we were all explaining 20 times. the whole thread turned into shitposting. under dimdens request, they deleted it. it was for the best but i wish i could've archived to look at the memories we made.
title: hi lol hisashiburi
date: 08/29/2024 02:28PM
have been stuck at my mother's place for the entire august. not bad tbh. missing my apartment badly. also broke. there's that lol. not much happening but i have been off for about a week now. there was things planned but plans changed. its okay. enough with the grind. its time to rest. fuck work. not really but fuck work. also wearing press ons is a nice feeling.
husband is not feeling mentally well. has bad dreams about losing me. during my darkest days he has been there for me. it's time i'm there for him.
date: 08/29/2024 02:28PM
have been stuck at my mother's place for the entire august. not bad tbh. missing my apartment badly. also broke. there's that lol. not much happening but i have been off for about a week now. there was things planned but plans changed. its okay. enough with the grind. its time to rest. fuck work. not really but fuck work. also wearing press ons is a nice feeling.
husband is not feeling mentally well. has bad dreams about losing me. during my darkest days he has been there for me. it's time i'm there for him.
title:TOO DAMN LONG
date: 10/13/2024 10:31AM
haven't been able to do things on here because of how busy and stressed me and my husband have been about moving out of the apartment and back into my moms place. its a decision we both made as we have been been seeing how imcompetent both my older and younger brother are in terms of helping out my mom. but that adds onto the stress for both of us as we always witness the bullshit around the house. dishes are always full, laundry room always packed with baskets of unwashed laundry. dirty floors around the house, trashbags are full and who gets to clean them? my mother. so me and my husband along with my two younger brothers are always the ones to clean the house almost all the time. with complaints that is. my mom is the kind of person (i am just like her) who doesn't like asking because if you live in this house and see something that needs to be clean, i don't need to tell you to clean it as you should already be thinking about cleaning it.
other than all of that, me and my husband had an argument the other day about all this stuff and its probably because of the stress we both are having. like mentioned earlier i am just like my mom where i do not want any conflicts to happen and i tend to hold my husband back from what he wants to say to my brothers. (the two that are incompetent) which also leads to me getting treated like shit sometimes. by my brothers. but me and my husband don't like to be mad at eachother for too long as we always try to make it up to eachother all the time. though whenever i'm not in the mood and my face looks like abitch my mom, who is heavily cultutred, always think i'm mad and shouldn't make my husband feel weird. is that a cultural thing? lol idk
but anyways about my website. on my newsletter i stated that i will be inactive until the end of november. since i am over at my moms place i am currently using my younger brothers pc to access nekoweb and occasionally neocities. but i do have plans to re-do my layout. like everything. perhaps. but i am still inactive on nekoweb. i'm active on discord again! ping for for whatever you want or need idk. also making more plasma buttons and blinkies and i have new rice buttons awaiting to be put on the website. thats all for today. see you in november perhaps.
date: 10/13/2024 10:31AM
haven't been able to do things on here because of how busy and stressed me and my husband have been about moving out of the apartment and back into my moms place. its a decision we both made as we have been been seeing how imcompetent both my older and younger brother are in terms of helping out my mom. but that adds onto the stress for both of us as we always witness the bullshit around the house. dishes are always full, laundry room always packed with baskets of unwashed laundry. dirty floors around the house, trashbags are full and who gets to clean them? my mother. so me and my husband along with my two younger brothers are always the ones to clean the house almost all the time. with complaints that is. my mom is the kind of person (i am just like her) who doesn't like asking because if you live in this house and see something that needs to be clean, i don't need to tell you to clean it as you should already be thinking about cleaning it.
other than all of that, me and my husband had an argument the other day about all this stuff and its probably because of the stress we both are having. like mentioned earlier i am just like my mom where i do not want any conflicts to happen and i tend to hold my husband back from what he wants to say to my brothers. (the two that are incompetent) which also leads to me getting treated like shit sometimes. by my brothers. but me and my husband don't like to be mad at eachother for too long as we always try to make it up to eachother all the time. though whenever i'm not in the mood and my face looks like abitch my mom, who is heavily cultutred, always think i'm mad and shouldn't make my husband feel weird. is that a cultural thing? lol idk
but anyways about my website. on my newsletter i stated that i will be inactive until the end of november. since i am over at my moms place i am currently using my younger brothers pc to access nekoweb and occasionally neocities. but i do have plans to re-do my layout. like everything. perhaps. but i am still inactive on nekoweb. i'm active on discord again! ping for for whatever you want or need idk. also making more plasma buttons and blinkies and i have new rice buttons awaiting to be put on the website. thats all for today. see you in november perhaps.
title:fuck...
date: 10/25/2024 10:36AM
fuck....came home early today because i was not having it. i felt like if i stayed longer i'd explode in tears our of anger. working with a bunch of stupid is draining the life out of me so i might as well just leave. my work friend texted me that i can't be leaving all the time if i'm on her line. "her" as in a line leader i absolutely dislike. we both don't like her for reasons i won't list why. i think thats also a reason i came home but it is not entirely the reason. i am okay. i am fine. i just wasn't having it at all. i also told my work friend it might just be a sign of me starting my period lol. whatever lmao fuck it
date: 10/25/2024 10:36AM
fuck....came home early today because i was not having it. i felt like if i stayed longer i'd explode in tears our of anger. working with a bunch of stupid is draining the life out of me so i might as well just leave. my work friend texted me that i can't be leaving all the time if i'm on her line. "her" as in a line leader i absolutely dislike. we both don't like her for reasons i won't list why. i think thats also a reason i came home but it is not entirely the reason. i am okay. i am fine. i just wasn't having it at all. i also told my work friend it might just be a sign of me starting my period lol. whatever lmao fuck it
title:idgaf
date: 11/10/2024 08:45AM
the election was craaazzzzyyyyyy. once again the democratic party lost because they keep telling lies and feeding people lies making them believe in lies. until the democratic party get their shit together they will continue to lose.
date: 11/10/2024 08:45AM
the election was craaazzzzyyyyyy. once again the democratic party lost because they keep telling lies and feeding people lies making them believe in lies. until the democratic party get their shit together they will continue to lose.
title:the grind
date: 11/17/2024 05:57PM
onto the grind. i am going to grind my ass off to save money and move out again. moving back in was a bad idea. cannot wait to move out and have freedom again. i love my mom but i cannot live in a household where shit is always being talked about, especially about my husband.
and that just sums up the kind of wife i am.
date: 11/17/2024 05:57PM
onto the grind. i am going to grind my ass off to save money and move out again. moving back in was a bad idea. cannot wait to move out and have freedom again. i love my mom but i cannot live in a household where shit is always being talked about, especially about my husband.
and that just sums up the kind of wife i am.
title:thanksgiving
date: 11/29/2024 06:27AM
thanksgiving was alright. cooked partially with my mom and sister from the morning all the way to 3PM. my mom made sweet pork, the turkey and bought papaya salad and some fruits. i fried the eggrolls while my mom, sister and grandma made the eggrolls for me to fry. they aren't my favorite so i ain't worried about eating it. i also bought a cake from walmart. recently i went to this mexican store and they had authentic tres leches cake and i it tasted better then the ones ive tried. walmart apparently had tres leches cake so i bought a 1/4 cake. picked it up from walmart that wednesday and we celebrated my baby nephews birthday since it was early this month. my older brother and my sister in law came on wednesday but my nephew is having a very hard time adjusting to the new environment so hes been having shitass sleep and hes getting sick so my old brother and sister in law are deciding to leave today in the afternoon, maybe sooner for the sake of my baby nephew.
also making button commissions is fun.
also finished packing and cleaning my apartment. like officially done. with the help of my mom of course. i think without her being involved with the cleaning we would be husling our asses off trying to finish. we were going to turn in our keys that wednesday BUT they were closed an hour early which we didn't know so we have to turn in our keys maybe on saturday and if not then definitly on monday. they better not give us shit because telling us that our last day is on the 30th when its a saturday and you're most likely closed that day. fucking dumbasses.
have not been using my money. imma go to black friday shit to see what they have. probably not gonna buy anything because i really have everything already. just gonna check out and if i don't see anything imma head out.
date: 11/29/2024 06:27AM
thanksgiving was alright. cooked partially with my mom and sister from the morning all the way to 3PM. my mom made sweet pork, the turkey and bought papaya salad and some fruits. i fried the eggrolls while my mom, sister and grandma made the eggrolls for me to fry. they aren't my favorite so i ain't worried about eating it. i also bought a cake from walmart. recently i went to this mexican store and they had authentic tres leches cake and i it tasted better then the ones ive tried. walmart apparently had tres leches cake so i bought a 1/4 cake. picked it up from walmart that wednesday and we celebrated my baby nephews birthday since it was early this month. my older brother and my sister in law came on wednesday but my nephew is having a very hard time adjusting to the new environment so hes been having shitass sleep and hes getting sick so my old brother and sister in law are deciding to leave today in the afternoon, maybe sooner for the sake of my baby nephew.
also making button commissions is fun.
also finished packing and cleaning my apartment. like officially done. with the help of my mom of course. i think without her being involved with the cleaning we would be husling our asses off trying to finish. we were going to turn in our keys that wednesday BUT they were closed an hour early which we didn't know so we have to turn in our keys maybe on saturday and if not then definitly on monday. they better not give us shit because telling us that our last day is on the 30th when its a saturday and you're most likely closed that day. fucking dumbasses.
have not been using my money. imma go to black friday shit to see what they have. probably not gonna buy anything because i really have everything already. just gonna check out and if i don't see anything imma head out.
title:new years celebration
date: 11/30/2024 10:00AM
celebrating the new years with wearing our culture clothing. just gonna take pictures and head out to go shopping again, not me tho but we will see.
wanting to buy a hobonichi weeks journal but i feel like im wasting money. fml.
date: 11/30/2024 10:00AM
celebrating the new years with wearing our culture clothing. just gonna take pictures and head out to go shopping again, not me tho but we will see.
wanting to buy a hobonichi weeks journal but i feel like im wasting money. fml.
title:in shambles
date: 11/30/2024 06:12PM
wanted to code a archive layout of my past layouts for my site, just to find out my code from my previous layout is gone. like forever gone. and now people on discord is telling me i shouldve gused git to cmmit my site codings. its so fucking nekoever. joever. i think people are tired of me yapping on discord but i just cannot stress enough how fucked up i am. i had attachment issues with that layout like i loved it with my whole heart. just for my stoopid ass to not save it when clearly i remember before switching to a new layout i saved it under my css folder with the title layout5. makes me not want to code an archive layout anymore but i still kinda want to. on top of that i also have to deal with my money. didn't delete that schedule fixed payment and now i paid another month of rent. thats $745 down the fucking drain. and im pretty sure i wont get my deposit back because the landlord over there is going to find some small shit and say they need my deposit to fix the damages. like what fucking damages lmao. hopefully i get it. because if i get my refund of $745 and my deposit of $650 then the total would be $1395. that means ill have more then enough to keep saving because at this point i feel like im so broke even though i have over $1k in my bank. still i had to deal with these 2 problems im so fucking stressed and pissed. like super pissed like im in complete and utter shambles at this very moment. ive yapped about this before and im yapping now because i cant get over it like my heart is breaking and im sooooooo stressed. cannot stress how stress i am right now. fuck me life bro. oooommmmggggg shgkdfgOSrtgh ozdig jfdjh;sligliszdj'pzedirupdijgdf g fuck man.
date: 11/30/2024 06:12PM
wanted to code a archive layout of my past layouts for my site, just to find out my code from my previous layout is gone. like forever gone. and now people on discord is telling me i shouldve gused git to cmmit my site codings. its so fucking nekoever. joever. i think people are tired of me yapping on discord but i just cannot stress enough how fucked up i am. i had attachment issues with that layout like i loved it with my whole heart. just for my stoopid ass to not save it when clearly i remember before switching to a new layout i saved it under my css folder with the title layout5. makes me not want to code an archive layout anymore but i still kinda want to. on top of that i also have to deal with my money. didn't delete that schedule fixed payment and now i paid another month of rent. thats $745 down the fucking drain. and im pretty sure i wont get my deposit back because the landlord over there is going to find some small shit and say they need my deposit to fix the damages. like what fucking damages lmao. hopefully i get it. because if i get my refund of $745 and my deposit of $650 then the total would be $1395. that means ill have more then enough to keep saving because at this point i feel like im so broke even though i have over $1k in my bank. still i had to deal with these 2 problems im so fucking stressed and pissed. like super pissed like im in complete and utter shambles at this very moment. ive yapped about this before and im yapping now because i cant get over it like my heart is breaking and im sooooooo stressed. cannot stress how stress i am right now. fuck me life bro. oooommmmggggg shgkdfgOSrtgh ozdig jfdjh;sligliszdj'pzedirupdijgdf g fuck man.
title:bored
date: 12/07/2024 11:25AM
been trying to find the motivation to code stupid shit. so far i've been coding this tab thingy which was working out fine until i tried to style the content within it was super frustrating because nothing wanted to work. tried display flex but that was being weird. tried to do other complicated shit but that also didn't work so i just gave up. its just sitting in my notepad until i want to try to code again. i also changed the font of my website because i saw oooeee site font changed and im like BET i wanna change mines too. I AINT A COPY CAT LOL.
my husband was really sick yesterday. he was puking and having the bubble guts since 2am of yesterday. my husband decided to call in since he was too sick to go to work. i wanted to call in but my points say otherwise. i made sure to tell him to eat the medicine my mom provided for him and to make sure to stay hydrated and if he was hungry to eat some soup. came home after a trip to the grocery store and came home to him being weak from laying on the sofa and having the bubble guts. ordered him some apple sauce since apparently it helps him a lot. stayed with him and we both went to bed. woke up to massage him and we ate breakfest. he feels a lot better now thankfully. i feel like with him being sick for the very first time in a long time it pretty much means we are both very unhealthy. my husband tends to never gets sick while i always get sick. either way, thankful he's all better now. he's been having really bad back aches and stomach cramps from all the bubble guts.
also i solved the wholeass apartment rent shit. apparently they will refund me with the deposit; however security deposit they have left for me; some time soon. hopefully soon.
date: 12/07/2024 11:25AM
been trying to find the motivation to code stupid shit. so far i've been coding this tab thingy which was working out fine until i tried to style the content within it was super frustrating because nothing wanted to work. tried display flex but that was being weird. tried to do other complicated shit but that also didn't work so i just gave up. its just sitting in my notepad until i want to try to code again. i also changed the font of my website because i saw oooeee site font changed and im like BET i wanna change mines too. I AINT A COPY CAT LOL.
my husband was really sick yesterday. he was puking and having the bubble guts since 2am of yesterday. my husband decided to call in since he was too sick to go to work. i wanted to call in but my points say otherwise. i made sure to tell him to eat the medicine my mom provided for him and to make sure to stay hydrated and if he was hungry to eat some soup. came home after a trip to the grocery store and came home to him being weak from laying on the sofa and having the bubble guts. ordered him some apple sauce since apparently it helps him a lot. stayed with him and we both went to bed. woke up to massage him and we ate breakfest. he feels a lot better now thankfully. i feel like with him being sick for the very first time in a long time it pretty much means we are both very unhealthy. my husband tends to never gets sick while i always get sick. either way, thankful he's all better now. he's been having really bad back aches and stomach cramps from all the bubble guts.
also i solved the wholeass apartment rent shit. apparently they will refund me with the deposit; however security deposit they have left for me; some time soon. hopefully soon.
title:i got sick
date: 12/10/2024 11:41AM
i was telling my husband and my siblings that i better not get sick from them. well, there you know it. i got sick. and it was the worst time of my life. came back from home feeling like my stimach was bloated and everytime i bent down to clean up at work it hurted. i was also very exhuasted that day and thankfully my husband was home since he didnt work yesterday. told him i had to go user the bathroom and i just kept on going. there was a point where i was just waiting in the bathroom to see what was up. i also attempted to go back to my bedroom and try to lay it off but i couldn't because i could not take whatever smell i was smelling and immediantly headed back to the bathroom. then my stomach started to hurt, mostly my right side of my stomach. it hurted so bad when i stood up but when i sat down on the bathroom floor it hurted less. had to text my husband to come to me because i really need him to hold me. i had to also ask my little brother if he felt pain in his stomach when he was sick and he said well kind of. my little brother also said what helped him was drinking pepto bismol. i was pacing back and forth because i couldn't stay still and my husband was just standing there rubbing my back as it hurted really bad. then i started to feel it. i ran to the toilet and positioned myself to puke. god it was so awful. i hate puking. i hate it with a dying passion. if i were to take something that all humans wish they never want to experience it'd be puking. after i finished puking, i felt so nasty. my husband brought me a new pair of pants and underwear but i told him i wanted to take a shower because i felt so disgusting. took a shower, drank pepto bismol, drank a shit tons of water and the entire evening i was hot and cold repeatedly. felt so weak and fatigued. i was so exhuasted from the repeated back and forth of going to the bathroom. felt like puking but alsi felt like my bubble guts were going to explode. my husband advised me to sleep over in the living room as to have full and close access to the bathroom. i did that. laid flat on my back as to keep my breathing at steady flow. but everytime i tried to make myself comfortable it was just so hard to breathe. the living room was also getting hotter and with that i couldn't even sleep well on the futon nor the sofa. i ended up waking to go back to the bedroom with my husband. i tried to avoid sleeping close to him as to avoid him getting sick again. woke up this morning feeling super much better then yesterday. still have the bubble guts but it isn't as bad as having that yesterday. im drinking lots of water to keep myself hydrated but i have no clue what to eat since i want to avoid solid food. i am really craving my moms chicken porridge. my husband said if i wanted to order something i can use his money but idk what to order tbh. now im just sitting here not knowing what to do and i cant seem to find the remote control for the tv. called in today. cannot call in anymore. i am at my very last point. i really hope this shit goes away. who fucking knew it'd get this bad. never again. havent felt sick like this since i was little. i would rather have a cough and a stuffy nose then deal with this.
date: 12/10/2024 11:41AM
i was telling my husband and my siblings that i better not get sick from them. well, there you know it. i got sick. and it was the worst time of my life. came back from home feeling like my stimach was bloated and everytime i bent down to clean up at work it hurted. i was also very exhuasted that day and thankfully my husband was home since he didnt work yesterday. told him i had to go user the bathroom and i just kept on going. there was a point where i was just waiting in the bathroom to see what was up. i also attempted to go back to my bedroom and try to lay it off but i couldn't because i could not take whatever smell i was smelling and immediantly headed back to the bathroom. then my stomach started to hurt, mostly my right side of my stomach. it hurted so bad when i stood up but when i sat down on the bathroom floor it hurted less. had to text my husband to come to me because i really need him to hold me. i had to also ask my little brother if he felt pain in his stomach when he was sick and he said well kind of. my little brother also said what helped him was drinking pepto bismol. i was pacing back and forth because i couldn't stay still and my husband was just standing there rubbing my back as it hurted really bad. then i started to feel it. i ran to the toilet and positioned myself to puke. god it was so awful. i hate puking. i hate it with a dying passion. if i were to take something that all humans wish they never want to experience it'd be puking. after i finished puking, i felt so nasty. my husband brought me a new pair of pants and underwear but i told him i wanted to take a shower because i felt so disgusting. took a shower, drank pepto bismol, drank a shit tons of water and the entire evening i was hot and cold repeatedly. felt so weak and fatigued. i was so exhuasted from the repeated back and forth of going to the bathroom. felt like puking but alsi felt like my bubble guts were going to explode. my husband advised me to sleep over in the living room as to have full and close access to the bathroom. i did that. laid flat on my back as to keep my breathing at steady flow. but everytime i tried to make myself comfortable it was just so hard to breathe. the living room was also getting hotter and with that i couldn't even sleep well on the futon nor the sofa. i ended up waking to go back to the bedroom with my husband. i tried to avoid sleeping close to him as to avoid him getting sick again. woke up this morning feeling super much better then yesterday. still have the bubble guts but it isn't as bad as having that yesterday. im drinking lots of water to keep myself hydrated but i have no clue what to eat since i want to avoid solid food. i am really craving my moms chicken porridge. my husband said if i wanted to order something i can use his money but idk what to order tbh. now im just sitting here not knowing what to do and i cant seem to find the remote control for the tv. called in today. cannot call in anymore. i am at my very last point. i really hope this shit goes away. who fucking knew it'd get this bad. never again. havent felt sick like this since i was little. i would rather have a cough and a stuffy nose then deal with this.
title: betrayal
date: 12/15/2024 9:43AM
tm leaving the chat and saying his arc is over and not accepting my friend request has got to be the biggest betrayal before 2024 ended. mother fucker invited me to the server then decided his lore has ended and ghosted everyone. i have every right to become a villian rn.
date: 12/15/2024 9:43AM
tm leaving the chat and saying his arc is over and not accepting my friend request has got to be the biggest betrayal before 2024 ended. mother fucker invited me to the server then decided his lore has ended and ghosted everyone. i have every right to become a villian rn.